Just a quick update at three in the morning. I had a presentation that had been due on Tuesday and I finally completed it tonight. I have to present it to the class tomorrow and hope it goes well. It is basically a lesson that I will present as if I am a teacher and the other students are my students. I also had to come up with a week of planned lessons...just the plan, not the actual lessons. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted since I finished it. Presenting it isn't really a problem for me, just actually getting it done. I also have a paper due on Friday and I will be taking the GRE and the Praxis II test next week. So, you know what I will be doing this weekend...studying. I am actually on standby for the Praxis cause I missed the registration deadline. So, I would greatly appreciate some prayers and good thoughts my way that I will be able to take the test next week. If I have to wait until next month, I won't receive my scores in time for my grad school apps. So, send a little love my way.
I am almost done with my 20 hours volunteering at the adult ESL class. I really like the teacher and enjoy the students and I had planned to keep helping out after I am done with my hours. However, I will actually be switching to another class at the same school, but I will be working with high school students. I found out that for one of my letters of recommend for grad school, I need to have done some work with real high school or middle school students and have the teacher that I work with provide that letter. I am sad to leave the ESL class, but am excited to work with the kids and face the new challenges that that will include. I know it will be challenging because this is an alternative high school, not a traditional one. These are the kids that have been sent or chose to go here because of pregnancy, problems, or issues. I hope I can learn a lot and help along the way.
I told H that there are very few things in my life that I have actually been nervous about, such as starting at my third new high school, getting pregnant, and buying a house. But this grad school app process is really doing a number on me, nerve-wise. I'm so afraid that I will think that I have completed everything and will find out at the last minute that I screwed something up or forgot something and there goes graduation or there goes my chance at grad school. I've always been a procrastinator, but I am trying really hard to not wait around for anything when it comes to this. I may end up so tightly wound by next summer that it will take a weeklong nap, no noise for three days, and a lot of liquor to get me loose again (well, no liquor for this mormon...maybe some good meds though). I am already feeling my stomach twisting in knots just thinking about the future stress. Ugh! I just want to be done already and finally have something to show for all my hard work and years of school. I'm tired and can't take any extra surprises or delays. Stick a fork in me, I'm done!
Enough ranting. I think I have successfully sidestepped the cold that was trying to overtake me. However, H is showing early signs of the flu. Not good. I will have to watch out for him and simultaneously keep my distance. Getting sick is just not an option right now. Unfortunately, Nobby has come down with the flu and can't keep anything down. I told her that I felt bad cause I was complaining about not being able to breathe through my nose. Small potatoes compared to her right now. I really hope she's okay. We were hoping to have a LonDoll's night out but it's more important that she feel better. There's always next weekend. Heaven knows that I'm definitely going to need a night out after those entrance exams.