Nothing much new. Just taking things one day at a time. Two days this week, I was so exhausted by midday that I was telling H that I believe we are done having kiddos. I love my kids to pieces, but you really do forget just how much energy they require; mental, physical, and emotional. I even managed to fall asleep laying in Little Man's carseat the other night. Yeah, I need more sleep. So, I'm trying to get to bed much earlier and trying to not wear myself out. It's odd how quickly your mood and energy can change. Yesterday, I got Little Man to sleep in a good nap and was just pumped to get out of the house for a bit. So, I made my way to the grocery store...I know, such an exciting life. Anyway, by the time I was checking out at the register, I was exhausted again. And the other day, I was nodding off at 5 p.m. and then raring to go by 8 p.m. Odd.
The LonDolls dinner was great. We met up at a bakery and had sandwiches. It was wonderful to sit and visit with the girls, sitting and chatting with no rush to be elsewhere. We really missed Whit though since she couldn't travel down. No fun. But the girls are all doing well, living life. I really appreciated H for watching the kids and tending to Little Man while I was out. I think I need to make it a priority to get out every once in a while and relax and visit with my girls. I wish that Jen, my love in Maine, lived closer. I could see us packing up all the kids and taking off for a whole weekend each month. I love and miss her to pieces.
I can understand why so many women slip into postpartum depression. New moms are tired, they're stressed, they are lucky to get a shower everyday, and when we look in the mirror, it's easy to focus on the lingering weight and sagginess. I understand. And that's why it's so important to take your focus off these things and place them where they should be...your beautiful little one, making time for friends, and spoiling yourself with more rest and less "must do's". It's really hard to do all this when you are so used to putting everyone else first, but it's so important. I have checked out a couple of library books that I never finished. Who knows if I'll actually get to read them, but at least they are ready for me to steal away for a moment and soak up some reading. I also dug out some material that I bought for a couple of baby blankets. Not sure if they'll be completed anytime soon, but they are sitting there, tempting me if I have a moment. It's so important to give yourself an outlet. Jen does so with her beautiful crafts, and is currently focusing her creativity on her house. I have some crafts and good books....and an occasional nap.
Sure, life is stressful right now. Things aren't going perfect. But we're healthy, we're happy, and we're still smiling. That's enough.